time of revelation

every had one of those deep, dark secrets that were never meant for anyone's ears? i do...at least i did! its one of those secrets that one plans to never tell a soul...the take-it-to-the-grave sort of secret...but its been siphoned out of me...it feels like something has been wrought out of my soul...painful YES! but...yes there is a but

guess it feels better that cuddlywuddly knows...poor dearest cuddlywuddly probably didnt know what ground he was treading on when he did broach the subject quite innocently. but then...one revelation brings one more revelation...and each one tries to out-do the other...its like each revelation has the sole ambition to reign supreme

i as a cowardly rule do NOT deal with things i think i cant deal with. ive just learnt of things maybe i would rather have not known [coward! coward! coward!]

but then, i guess, sometimes its just easier to be in the dark than know all and deal with the entire thingbut this time its slightly different. its almost as if i want to deal with the entire brunt of it and i must say its quite fascinating. the fact that i havent even pursued the idea of running away from the entire situation in itself poses a number of questions in my very confused mind

however, it isnt as easy as it sounds!

[creature aint very good at dealing with things,

presently, its just way too much to digest,

BUT creature seems to be getting there.]