me and my personality!

or at least...this is what some test that dearest darling cuddlywuddly did and i so did i follow suit and here are the results:

Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (64%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain. Left Brain (30%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Are You Right or Left Brained?(word test)
personality tests by similarminds.com

extremely infuriating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

creature to blog: ok...i demand an explanation...and i mean a really good explanation!

blog to creature: er...watcha talking about? [smirks]

creature to blog: ADO..mey! [grins! recalling a very cute individual from whom she picked this up from]...i DID blog on this stupid thing on sunday...but lo and behold oh great blog [awesome sarcastic remark aint it?] it is not there

blog to creature: oh puleeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzz...! that aint my problem... [snort. snort. snort] im sure u didnt publish the damn thing properly

creature to blog: HMPF!... this is annoying...

final conclusion: creature thinks there is a
huge possibility that the BLOG is conspiring against little innocent her...she
will confide in the great big cuddlywuddly for guidance..until
then...toodloo!!!!!!!!

hypocrite = ME!

im going to sound extremely critical now...but its the way i feel now
its dum to say that i cant bring myself to imagine things that did happen...i should be ok with it ... DUH! but to think of it like THAT! its difficult...its weird...its not the easiest thing in the world to handle
and it gets worse, cuddlywuddly seems so distant now...maybe its my over-active imagination playing mean tricks on me...but oh i dont know...sigh!

creature does not even know why creature feels like this...all numb and unfeeling...but still feeling weird...like i dont have a hold on myself...dont know if i can bring myself to look at my cuddlywuddly... [sense of guilt and shame washes over]

just SO wish i hadnt anything like that,...but then...its a no-way out situation...i cant undo it...just wish...oh forget it...im pathetic...a loser...wasted! horrid!

time of revelation

every had one of those deep, dark secrets that were never meant for anyone's ears? i do...at least i did! its one of those secrets that one plans to never tell a soul...the take-it-to-the-grave sort of secret...but its been siphoned out of me...it feels like something has been wrought out of my soul...painful YES! but...yes there is a but

guess it feels better that cuddlywuddly knows...poor dearest cuddlywuddly probably didnt know what ground he was treading on when he did broach the subject quite innocently. but then...one revelation brings one more revelation...and each one tries to out-do the other...its like each revelation has the sole ambition to reign supreme

i as a cowardly rule do NOT deal with things i think i cant deal with. ive just learnt of things maybe i would rather have not known [coward! coward! coward!]

but then, i guess, sometimes its just easier to be in the dark than know all and deal with the entire thingbut this time its slightly different. its almost as if i want to deal with the entire brunt of it and i must say its quite fascinating. the fact that i havent even pursued the idea of running away from the entire situation in itself poses a number of questions in my very confused mind

however, it isnt as easy as it sounds!

[creature aint very good at dealing with things,

presently, its just way too much to digest,

BUT creature seems to be getting there.]

shitty aint it!

had a chat with a friend who i thought had a misunderstanding with me...and it turns out she thought i was pissed with her...and in the midst of sorting things out...it backfired and it looks like she still aint talking to me...

NEXT!

a friend is getting engaged...she tells me only today...and very bluntly puts it like this... "im getting engaged, but im not inviting u...will try taking you for a treat sometime..."
woah!
she has been my friend for donkey's years and she doesnt want me to be a part of her engagement? sob sob! sniff sniff!...thought i was more important...so much for me thinking that i was everything to my friends...just because i think of them like that!...
pish posh! ya!...

da kitty! :0

creature da kitty!
yep...its a kitty...he is so CUTE
and he is mine and cuddlywuddlys ...
aint that cute!

barbie doll?????

ok....this is way too weird..but my kids. no no no, i dont have any kids...i mean the kids i teach...

well, anyways...they suddenly. out of the blue. in the middle of a very important lesson on the alphabet...promptly announce that 'aunty' looks JUST like a barbie doll!

u can imagine my shock and horror at being likened to that beastly doll! YUCKY!

tell me...! do i look anything like that dolll! [aghast] big boobs. non-existent waist. hips that could probably deliver two kids at the same time!...do i?

if i did...im telling u...i would be so hunched coz my boobs would be too heavy for me!

[grin]...that would infact look too funny...

[creature rolls around in uncontrollable laughter]

ok..this is too much... :) :) :)

my poor kids are only like half a decade old...so i didnt take out my wrath on them...

but if there is any other eejit who even remotely thinks that i resemble that ghastly doll...watch out buster! ur gonna be dead meat!

it gets even worse :(

im hurt! utterly and truly hurt! everyone who i thought was my friend...they dont seem to be my friends anymore...

for one utterly stupid reason everyone seems to not approve of what im doing and stuff...its not their shit to decide! its mine! i never thought that they could be this horrid. i mean, ive never been like this with them

so i guess its true that at the end of the day all u have is urself...but im very close to my friends...but this lot! i never even thought this was possible

it hurts like hell...why? im not the loner type...i need my friends! and right now i feel very very small and alone...very very unhappy! i wish i could change thngs...but at least now i know what they can be like...

i hate this part about me. the part that hurts so easily, the shit part that depends on friends for everything and gives everything ive got and the one fine day ive woken up to a world where im the shit bucket! feel like one actually...

i dont feel sorry for myself...im just so disappointed with life sometimes...my ups and downs are like so frequent...things are always awesomely GOOD for me....or horridly horrible.

oh well! shit happens ya! but hate feeling this down! :(

misunderstood...totally!

it hurts when the people you've know all your life never get u. it hurts even more when they think of you as the most horrible things you can imagine.

yesterday, mother dearest accused me of a million things i never thought she would even remotely attach to me. its upsetting, it hurts.

ive never been able to understand something. how come my mother knows me so well, but can never understand where im coming from? how is that humanely possible?

on a different note though:

my cuddlywuddly is too good to be true :) i think he is the only person who actually understands me...its either that...or he is so smitten by me...that he is utterly and hopelessly prejudiced... ;)